The moment I think about school, I feel this sense of fear. I'm not kidding. I think about the things that I have to do and I really freak out. I have to tell myself to stop thinking and just handle it one at a time. I go through the entire process of thinking through about the things that I need to get done and the priority of each item. Just the thought of it all makes me feel like I really want to take an MC tomorrow to stay home, not to rest of escape from it all, but so that I can use the time at home to complete some things without having the interruptions of having to conduct lessons.

The past 2 days being away from school was pure bliss. I had no stress. I attended my course with the enthusiasm of a keen student and I met up with ex-students on both days for lunch. Chatting with the teachers from other schools was also interesting. You learn from each other that its the same stress everywhere regarding your CCA and we all face the same type of problems when it comes to teaching and planning for the subject. But this once incident got me thinking : we were talking about the subjects that we were teaching in school. The majority of these teachers wre teaching Maths ans CPA. When it came to my turn, I said "maths, english and CPA". Everyone had the same expression of shock and disbelief on their face. There stopped sipping their coffee and eating their cake for that split second. I was faced with questions like "how come like that?", "It's no joke man, how do you cope?" and all that.

I realised (once again) that I am overloaded over here. It seems stress and CCA duties are the same everywhere but 3 teaching subjects is almost unheard of. I am going to speak up this time and request that I teach only 2 subjects next year. And if I may choose, please please please give me Maths and CPA. I don't want English....but then again, BM is not likely to release me from her tentacles....she's like Ursala...

Speaking of BM, she wants to observe my English Lesson next term. I don't understand why. She's not my reporting officer. Yes I do belong to her department and so? She wants to do a routine quality check on all of us. *sigh*....the thought of it makes me sick. Term 4 is an extremely busy term for me. Being the only person in charge of the PMS, almost every week in term 4 is taken up for printing the result slips and leaving certs of each graduating level (starting with the 4NA students). I am going to just die....