J : Whatevers mine is yours!
H : Yay!!!
I love you baby....
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
We had so much fun at Mustafa's!! We were there on Saturday night, and then tonight we were back there again...here is a list of what I bought on both sprees :
1. Nike sneakers (Kids' size!! *hehe*)
2. 10 fridge magnets (for NZ peeps)
3. 6 SIA Batik packet tissue holders (for NZ peeps)
4. 2 YALE padlocks (opens with just 1 set of keys)
5. 3 MM padlocks (opens with just 1 set of keys too)
6. small torchlight (super bright)
7. 2 NZ travel adapters (at $1.40 each)
8. 1 set of travel adapters (for any country, comes with a blue pouch)
9. sanitary pads (20's, cottony cover)
10. small travel adapter (for the lamp I bought for the NZ principal hosting us)
11. 1 DVD player (!!) (Brand : Shinco. Never heard of, but the salesman was convincing)
Hooray!! What joy to buy and buy...haha!! I am so delighted with my purchases! The fridge magnets were a real steal. I saw the EXACT same magnets at Lim's (Holland V) and they were going at $3.50. I got mine from trusty Mustafa's at only $2.00!
We had fun today...ventured into the newest Mustafa block and that was where I bought the DVD player. We had teh tarik at our usual coffeeshop before heading home.
I'm behaving as if there is no school tomorrow and I do not need to work. Ooh....just let me pretend for once? I'm going to do some packing for my stuff..the trip's this Friday! Been having bad dreams about it. I hope everything goes on well.
1. Nike sneakers (Kids' size!! *hehe*)
2. 10 fridge magnets (for NZ peeps)
3. 6 SIA Batik packet tissue holders (for NZ peeps)
4. 2 YALE padlocks (opens with just 1 set of keys)
5. 3 MM padlocks (opens with just 1 set of keys too)
6. small torchlight (super bright)
7. 2 NZ travel adapters (at $1.40 each)
8. 1 set of travel adapters (for any country, comes with a blue pouch)
9. sanitary pads (20's, cottony cover)
10. small travel adapter (for the lamp I bought for the NZ principal hosting us)
11. 1 DVD player (!!) (Brand : Shinco. Never heard of, but the salesman was convincing)
Hooray!! What joy to buy and buy...haha!! I am so delighted with my purchases! The fridge magnets were a real steal. I saw the EXACT same magnets at Lim's (Holland V) and they were going at $3.50. I got mine from trusty Mustafa's at only $2.00!
We had fun today...ventured into the newest Mustafa block and that was where I bought the DVD player. We had teh tarik at our usual coffeeshop before heading home.
I'm behaving as if there is no school tomorrow and I do not need to work. Ooh....just let me pretend for once? I'm going to do some packing for my stuff..the trip's this Friday! Been having bad dreams about it. I hope everything goes on well.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
I think I need to put in more feelings into these blogs....I don't know man...
Been reading her blog and I can almost tell her character from it. It's like her blog reflects her character. So I started to wonder if mine reflects my character, and if it does, what does it say? What do others see?
Sometimes I think that I think too much. I can be so easily affected by a stupid dream that it can make me paraniod about things. I think it's because my dreams used to foretell things. A bad dream means something bad is about to happen to something that means alot to me. Up to today, I still feel paranoid about my dreams.
We're leaving on 29 Oct but there are no tickets confirmed yet!
Been reading her blog and I can almost tell her character from it. It's like her blog reflects her character. So I started to wonder if mine reflects my character, and if it does, what does it say? What do others see?
Sometimes I think that I think too much. I can be so easily affected by a stupid dream that it can make me paraniod about things. I think it's because my dreams used to foretell things. A bad dream means something bad is about to happen to something that means alot to me. Up to today, I still feel paranoid about my dreams.
We're leaving on 29 Oct but there are no tickets confirmed yet!
Monday, October 11, 2004
Goodbye Mr Goh...
Mr Goh passed away on Tuesday after fighting cancer since January. We were all so shocked when we found out in school. It felt so unreal. Mr Goh was one of my first friends in this school. When I first came to this school, I usedto sit right next to him and he was one of the first few who were friendly and kind to me. I will never forget him always joking about my tidbit-cupboard. I had this little cupboard/drawer at my table I that was where I stored all my goodies. He always said I was like his daughter - we both enjoy tidbits.
Sigh. Mr Goh's passing made us all think about life. We realise that we should not sell our life to school. Mr Goh only retired in June last year! He had not even begun to enjoy life and then he had to go. He was waiting for his wife to retire and he always talked about going travelling with her. He was such a loving husband and a very very good man. I felt really sad and cried a few times at the funeral. Certainly there is more to life than just work and suffering? There's a lesson here that he is leaving behind for us.
To summarize what else has happened for this week, well, I was on MC for Monday and Tuesday...then we found out about Mr Goh on Wednesday, visited his wake on Wednesday and Thursday, went out with a bunch of my ex-students on Friday night, went to send Mr Goh off on Saturday morning and then met up with the HFC Committee to discuss the camp in the noon and then spent the rest of the weekend with my baby...what a week...
Friday Night : I met up with Ian, GuoAn, Ashrin, Junliang, Sharifah and Lionel. We had pizza at Far East Plaza and then we went to play pool at Lucky Plaza. After that, we went to Chinablack! It was kind of weird at first, to be clubbing with your ex-students, but then I realise that they were all about my cousin's age so it wasn't so bad after all. In fact, I honestly don't feel as if I am THAT much older...hehehe... We had good clean fun...no excessive drinking (we all had just one drink, in fact...was so thirsty when we went home!) , just alot of dancing and grooving to the music. There was a whole 2 hours of RnB and it was great! The funny thing was, Chinese tend to dance to RnB in the exact same style as they would dance to techno music. It was odd! I honestly don't think Chinese have as much groove as the other races...generally speaking of course. Anyway, I shared a cab with 3 other of them as we all lived in Bt Batok...all in all, we had great fun and would probably do this again next time. But I dont' see it as a regular thing...meeting up too often would sort of "kill" the novelty of the gathering...
Tonight : We saw Exorcist tonight. It was quite scary. I don't think it's as bad as what the critics said. I mean, critics rated The Terminal badly?!?! It says lots about their taste huh? I bought ABBA ; The Definitive Collection. I figured it's something I would want to keep for the rest of my life so it was worth the money. I always enjoyed ABBA's music whenever it came on the radio. Am listening to it now and I can't recognise most of the songs!
Eyes : My right eye is still blur. Right now, my eyes are feeling dead tired from staring at this screen for such a long time. I am ending this here.
Mr Goh passed away on Tuesday after fighting cancer since January. We were all so shocked when we found out in school. It felt so unreal. Mr Goh was one of my first friends in this school. When I first came to this school, I usedto sit right next to him and he was one of the first few who were friendly and kind to me. I will never forget him always joking about my tidbit-cupboard. I had this little cupboard/drawer at my table I that was where I stored all my goodies. He always said I was like his daughter - we both enjoy tidbits.
Sigh. Mr Goh's passing made us all think about life. We realise that we should not sell our life to school. Mr Goh only retired in June last year! He had not even begun to enjoy life and then he had to go. He was waiting for his wife to retire and he always talked about going travelling with her. He was such a loving husband and a very very good man. I felt really sad and cried a few times at the funeral. Certainly there is more to life than just work and suffering? There's a lesson here that he is leaving behind for us.
To summarize what else has happened for this week, well, I was on MC for Monday and Tuesday...then we found out about Mr Goh on Wednesday, visited his wake on Wednesday and Thursday, went out with a bunch of my ex-students on Friday night, went to send Mr Goh off on Saturday morning and then met up with the HFC Committee to discuss the camp in the noon and then spent the rest of the weekend with my baby...what a week...
Friday Night : I met up with Ian, GuoAn, Ashrin, Junliang, Sharifah and Lionel. We had pizza at Far East Plaza and then we went to play pool at Lucky Plaza. After that, we went to Chinablack! It was kind of weird at first, to be clubbing with your ex-students, but then I realise that they were all about my cousin's age so it wasn't so bad after all. In fact, I honestly don't feel as if I am THAT much older...hehehe... We had good clean fun...no excessive drinking (we all had just one drink, in fact...was so thirsty when we went home!) , just alot of dancing and grooving to the music. There was a whole 2 hours of RnB and it was great! The funny thing was, Chinese tend to dance to RnB in the exact same style as they would dance to techno music. It was odd! I honestly don't think Chinese have as much groove as the other races...generally speaking of course. Anyway, I shared a cab with 3 other of them as we all lived in Bt Batok...all in all, we had great fun and would probably do this again next time. But I dont' see it as a regular thing...meeting up too often would sort of "kill" the novelty of the gathering...
Tonight : We saw Exorcist tonight. It was quite scary. I don't think it's as bad as what the critics said. I mean, critics rated The Terminal badly?!?! It says lots about their taste huh? I bought ABBA ; The Definitive Collection. I figured it's something I would want to keep for the rest of my life so it was worth the money. I always enjoyed ABBA's music whenever it came on the radio. Am listening to it now and I can't recognise most of the songs!
Eyes : My right eye is still blur. Right now, my eyes are feeling dead tired from staring at this screen for such a long time. I am ending this here.
Monday, October 04, 2004
Depressed with my Shitload.
I'm real depressed man...was just lying in bed thinking of all the things that I have to do and I just burst out crying! I am so frustrated. I don't know why I have so many things to do that others don't. I don't see why I have to be so responsible. Can I try to be inefficient and irresponsible for once and let some of these things fall? Why do all these things depend on me so much? It's like everything depends on whether or not Ms N has done this part or that part yet. I mean, hello, don't forget that Ms N is also a teacher who has the normal teaching load and MARKING LOAD ok. It's not like I have alot of free time to do all these things?! Stop loading me with work just because you know I am efficient and I will get it done.
I've had it. I'm sick and tired of work. I wonder what will happen if I run away from all of this. Oh come on huey, you don't even have a choice so why bother day dreaming about running away from it all? It's not like there's a choice you know. You know that you will have to move on and DO IT ALL when you get back to work tomorrow. So shuddup and finish your marking now so you can at least have some rest tonight.
Should I use the mc for tomorrow? Doctor gave me 2 days to rest but I am not even sure if I can afford two days of rest?! Isn't this ridiculous?!
I'm so tired of it all. So tired. I don't see any motivation at all. Nothing motivates me. I used to think that what I do will benefit the students. True, this NZ trip will be good for them and they will have fun and have an experience. But who appreciates all the shitload that Ms N has to do so that they have have a good time? Who even KNOWS about the shit that she's standing in right now?
Haha...even if they knew, they can only stand and watch. No one can help me. Absolutely no one. At the end of the day, its still Ms N's Shit and its something she has to go through and to clear up. I can't throw them on another person to handle can I? I can't just stand in that pile of shit and let it creep up my legs can I? I can't just pull myself out and run away and hope that it evaporates into thin air can I?
So you see, I am stuck.
I'm real depressed man...was just lying in bed thinking of all the things that I have to do and I just burst out crying! I am so frustrated. I don't know why I have so many things to do that others don't. I don't see why I have to be so responsible. Can I try to be inefficient and irresponsible for once and let some of these things fall? Why do all these things depend on me so much? It's like everything depends on whether or not Ms N has done this part or that part yet. I mean, hello, don't forget that Ms N is also a teacher who has the normal teaching load and MARKING LOAD ok. It's not like I have alot of free time to do all these things?! Stop loading me with work just because you know I am efficient and I will get it done.
I've had it. I'm sick and tired of work. I wonder what will happen if I run away from all of this. Oh come on huey, you don't even have a choice so why bother day dreaming about running away from it all? It's not like there's a choice you know. You know that you will have to move on and DO IT ALL when you get back to work tomorrow. So shuddup and finish your marking now so you can at least have some rest tonight.
Should I use the mc for tomorrow? Doctor gave me 2 days to rest but I am not even sure if I can afford two days of rest?! Isn't this ridiculous?!
I'm so tired of it all. So tired. I don't see any motivation at all. Nothing motivates me. I used to think that what I do will benefit the students. True, this NZ trip will be good for them and they will have fun and have an experience. But who appreciates all the shitload that Ms N has to do so that they have have a good time? Who even KNOWS about the shit that she's standing in right now?
Haha...even if they knew, they can only stand and watch. No one can help me. Absolutely no one. At the end of the day, its still Ms N's Shit and its something she has to go through and to clear up. I can't throw them on another person to handle can I? I can't just stand in that pile of shit and let it creep up my legs can I? I can't just pull myself out and run away and hope that it evaporates into thin air can I?
So you see, I am stuck.
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