We saw Lord Of The Rings again just now. Yes, it's that good and we like it that much. :-)

Suddenly the thought of having school to start again next thursday is really scary. Now I know what it means to actually go for a holiday to feel that you have had your holiday before school starts. I seem to have been busy most of this holiday! It's either band stuff, or Happy Friends' Club stuff, or school stuff. Where's my holiday? Where's my break? We will be going to Beaufort to spend Christmas Eve and Day. I hope that somehow I will have that feeling of having a holiday abroad when I'm there.

We're going to do our outdoor picnic thingey at Sertosa on Christmas Eve. It's kind of like a "tradition", since we did the same last year. We went to Giant at Turf City today to get the stuff we need, minus the perishables. We even bought a little cooler box to put our raw food in! It was fun planning for it.

We agreed that being at Turf City made us feel as if we were in Malaysia. Maybe it's the sheer size of the entire mall, maybe its the lack of proper facilities like shelters, taxi stands, wide escalators, ample trolley ramps, or maybe its the lack in numbers in the crowd in comparison to the mall. The whole food mall outside looked like it was going to close down soon. Business looked bad for a place that should be popular.

I bought Diana Krall's "Live In Paris". There is one song in it that I really love -- "Just the way you are". It's so romantic and the lyrics are so meaningful.

Since I went through that bad patch with the previous relationship, I've always wanted to be loved for who I am. I wanted someone to see who I really was inside and to love and appreciate me for all that, the good and the bad. I wanted someone who would not take advantage of my weaknesses nor to use them against me. I had enough of that from the previous experience, in which I was deeply hurt. It took me a long time to get over it and to put it behind me. I told myself that I will not allow another person to make me feel less than I am. I will not allow another to put me down and to take away my self-esteem and self-believe. It took me a long time to collect all the bits back and to piece them together again.

This is partly why this song is so special to me. I have found someone who can see who I really am and who loves me for all that. It's magical. We just came to each other over a cup of coffee and it all started from there. We were honest about ourselves and I fell in love with whom I saw.

Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore

I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.