Guilty

Darn....I hate to feel guilty about stuff and my mum just made me feel immensely guilty.

You see, she'll buy stuff like ling zhi, royal jelly, vitamin C and etc for me to eat. She even goes to all that trouble to get them in tablet form so all I need to do is to swallow them every morning. She even put it on my table and she has even ever left a glass of water on my table for me so that I can just swallow the damn tablets in the morning. (talk about spoon feeding...*feel bad*)

She just came into my room. Took the bottle of royal jelly tablets and realised that they have expired. It's still almost full. I was hoping she wouldn't start the nagging again about me eating the tablets, not taking care of my health, the stuff is good for me, I don't have enough sleep or rest so I must take care of myself, yadda yadda yadda..... She didn't quite nag this time. She just complained.

"See lah, expire already. Ask you to eat you just won't eat." *shakes head*

"....." *stare at computer, pretending not to hear*

"You ah, very bad habit you know! Buy for you and waste money."

"It's not a bad habit...it's actually difficult to start the habit of eating it everyday..."

"You have the bad habit of NOT eating it. That's all" *sighs*

Then she capped the bottle and threw it into the bin.

Oh my goodness. I really feel guilty. As much as I know that I really need to START the habit, it's really hard! I know mum means well. It's her way of taking care of me. I'm not doing much justice to her efforts by not eating those stuff. It's not even because I don't like to eat them. I actually don't mind eating them...I guess I'm just ....lazy.

When I was little, my mum would make bird's nest once in awhile for us. She'd use the slow cooker to boil the bird's nest. Apparently, bird's nest is best absorbed into the body when you have an empty stomach and when its early in the morning (like pre-dawn). So she would wake us up at 4am in the morning and as we sat on our beds groggily, she'd spoon the bird's nest and feed us. We'll just drink everything up sleepily and go back to bed.

My mum also makes the best herbal soups.

I really don't feel good about this. The bottle of royal jelly pills sitting in my waste paper basket here just makes me feel so guilty. Argh!

Sorry ma.... :-S