Questions

Am I a good teacher?

Do I make an impact?

Some teachers like to blog about their lives, their students and they post plenty of pictures too. They have tagboards where their students can comment on their blogs and give them words of affirmation that they're loved and etc...

Perhaps it irks me to read these blogs because I see another side of these teachers. I feel that they're so fake in their blogs. The things they say make them look like they're such angels, all caring and loving towards their students and of course, they're cared for and loved by their students too. But in reality, there's this other very dark side to them that others do not see.

These fakies have a whole string of student-followers. Current and ex-students love them. Perhaps they have indeed touched lives as they go along in their duties as teachers. I don't know.

I'm glad my blog is private. I don't like to have the students from my school visiting my blog, tagging it, leaving their cute-sy comments and stuff. If I want something like that, I'd do a new blog. One that only shows one side of me - the teacher side. I've contemplated on doing on like that actually. So that I can communicate things to my students that I find hard to articulate in class. Especially about the stress I feel and how much I really care. But well, it's tiring to maintain 2 blogs. So, forget it.

I hope that someday, somehow, those that I've taught before will come to realise that whatever I do, it is with good intention and that I really care.

A good teacher is not judged by the number of student-followers she has, nor by the number of teacher's day presents she received.

I sound so full-of-myself in this entry. Like as if I am really so good. Or...I think I'm good.

But, am I a really good teacher? Do I really make an impact?

I don't think I'll ever know.