I am tired of all these. I think I will do exactly what I told him I will do. I will not care anymore about the whole issue. If she wants to help him all the way and give him all the money, she can go ahead. It's her money after all, so why should I care? I was only trying to protect her interests. If he continues to leech on her like this, this will go on forever. He will never learn to be responsible. I know that I have become his no. 1 enemy but I don't care. Honestly, I am not after the money at all. I don't even care for it. But she just does not see it that way. Maybe it's the way I have been talking to her about it. She seems to think that I am concerned about the money. I am only concerned about the kind of person that he is becoming by his behaviour and actions. The way he is leading his life now will be the way he leads his life for the rest of it. As his family, if we do not do anything, then who will help him? Must we wait till he spends every single cent before he learns? Must we wait till he gets involved in an accident before he regrets and learns? In trying to take all these preventive measures, the whole family has been subjected to all this stress.

She really blew her top just now. She went berserk. The last time I saw her like this was when she quarreled with father. And that was more than 10 years ago. I should not have said anything just now. I should have kept my bloody mouth shut. I did not know that she was getting more and more agitated as I spoke about him. She just threw the bowl she was holding and screamed at him. He was sleeping and she screamed right to his room. It was scary. Yes it really was. I was stunned and I was trembling. I tried to calm her down. She could have fainted. Then she started crying and saying that she would divide all the money up for us and give it all to us tomorrow so that she could be free of all this stress. I tried to tell her it was not about money but she refused to listen.

I don't know what to do anymore. Should I give up? I don't think that she will listen to me and understand that I am NOT upset because of the money. She just does not SEE it that I am only trying to protect her. If she continues to protect and give him money in advance, she will only spoil him further and he will never ever learn in life that money does not fall from the sky for him. He seriously thinks that the money is his to spend at his own free will. He is an adult now and he is working. How can he continue taking money from his mother for his expenditures? He would tell her that he is getting some cash from whatever sales he has made in a couple of days' time, but he needs that amount of money now so he wants to borrow from her. But he will not remember to return the money until she has to ask. Is that responsible behaviour?

I am so tired. So tired of all these. All of a sudden I feel that I should leave this place and go live on my own. Or just get married real soon and get out of this house. Then I don't need to see all these things happening. She won't have me nagging at her anymore. Maybe I am over-worrying about all these. Is what he is doing really that bad? Is it wrong for her to help him? She is his mother. Not me. Why should I try to tell her what she should or should not do? She can do whatever she wants for him.

I am just afraid that he will leave her penniless one day. She does not understand that it could be true.

I am very tired. I don't want to care anymore. I have already tried to close both eyes to all these. I think I will close my eyes for good. I will be blind to whatever he is doing to his life and to her life. I do not want to risk another outburst from her. If she had a weak heart, she might had easily had a heart attack just now, or a stroke. I don't want to provoke that. I will just keep my mouth shut from now. If he has to learn whatever lesson the hard way, so be it. It's probably meant to be the hard way in the first place, so there's nothing I can do to prevent it.

So be it.