I feel as if we've not really spent quality time with each other over the past 3 days or so although we did meet up. I think it's because we've been meeting up after work and rather late too and I am always very tired and drained of energy. My period is giving me the cramps and I don't like this feeling. It's uncomfortable and painful. I feel bloated and my lower abdomen just feels swollen and tight. My thighs are aching too and so is my back.

Think it's PMS I've been having over the past 2 days...all the unnecessary but very real and very "me" kind of anxiety was just coming at me.

Sometimes I cannot tell if it's my past or is it just me that makes me feel all this anxiety and fear. If I had not gone through all that in the past, would I feel this way and feel like that? Would I have more confidence than now?

I miss you baby....