Who would you call?

I visited Karen's mum today in the noon. Karen's mum has cancer and she is undergoing chemotherapy at the moment. She told me she feels the pain and it can be so bad that her legs can go numb. I cannot imagine what it is like at all, really. She is also losing her hair.. I felt sad to see her suffer. And all I can do is visit and chat with her.

After I left, I walked over to Serangoon Gardens Circus and walked around abit at the new Village mall and went up to the rooftop garden just to check out the view. Not much of a view given that it is only 3 storeys high.

I took a trip down memory lane and went to Happy Daze sidewalk cafe. Somewhere back in 2001 (I think), Jason and I went to Ian's house for an HFC camp meeting. We all adjourned to Happy Daze for a drink and to continue the discussion. At that time, the rest did now know that we were seeing each other and we were trying to keep it under wraps. He ordered a "spider" - which was actually just a coke float and while having it, he fed me some of the ice cream and it drew queer looks from Ian.. both of us were exchanging looks at each other and smiling away... it was such a happy feeling - of being in love, having this huge secret that you can't tell others yet, sharing something in common and very special between yourselves...as I type this, I can almost feel that same feeling.. :)

That's one of my memories of Jason... one of our first few "dates" together... quite abit of it has been documented in the earlier years of my blog and I am SO glad that he encouraged me to have this blog.. because now, I have those memories of him and my life all kept here.

I finished reading "An Hour to Live, An Hour to Love" on the bus-ride home. Sam lent me this book quite some time ago and I had left it on the shelf till now. He lent it to me early last year. It is funny how the books speaks to me in such an apt way now because it is about cherishing the people you love before they die.

"If you had an hour to live, who would you call, what would you say, why are you waiting?"

When I finished reading the book, I felt sad. I know that if I had an hour to live, I would wanna call Jason. To tell him I was sorry and to explain what happened back in 2008. I would tell him how I felt and try to sort it out with him. I would wanna make peace and then see if we could take it from there... but before I could do that, he left. So if I was given an hour to live now... I am no longer so sure about who I would call. Only one phonecall... and it would have been to him...

But then again, why should it be just one phonecall? If I had an hour to live, I have a whole list of people I would want to call. I would call those friends I love dearly, I would call my mum, I would call my brother, I would call my sister, I would call the person/people I like(d) to tell him the truth... I would call the people who matter to me.

What would I say to them? If I only had that one hour to call so many people... I will just say one thing... that I love them.