I can't even express myself in one complete blog because this stupid thing can only take a maximum number of paragraphs or something.

Everyone's life seems to have stopped because of me. Well, normal weekend activity has become a standstill because of this stupid fever. My mum can't go anywhere because all my relatives are scared of her. My sis can't come over because of me. I can't even get too close to my own boyfriend because of this. And because of this, we're not leading the normal lifestyle we used to have. Not that I don't like change, but this is ridiculous.

Hey, suddenly I feel like if I really have the stupid illness, then maybe it should really erupt so that I can get myself some medical attention at TTSH and then stay at CDC for a couple of days, take a couple of tests, and then get well and be discharged and then get back my passport to a normal life. But then again, that could mean having to spend the next 15-20 days in further isolation.

This is SO horrible. I'm not just angry. I'm feeling miserable. I don't like to live everyday having to stick a thermometer into my mouth every hour and then write down my body temperature. I don't like to live everyday in hope that the fever will go down and then be disappointed at the end of the day. I don't like to go to bed at night wondering if I will have to call TTSH in the middle of the night. I don't like to go to bed at night wondering if the fever will be gone when I wake up.

I just want back my life. My normal life.