I want to go out but I don't know where to go. I need to take a walk but I can't think of anywhere nearby that is peaceful and not crowded. I have too many thoughts and I don't know who to share them with.

I have let myself be so consumed by all these that I have lost myself in it. A part of me tells me that I must be strong and not to falter. It tells me to look at others and then see and realise that my problems are not really problems. I don't have to be so bothered by them. I just need to unlearn and relearn.

I feel that no amount of counselling or talking can get me out of this because I know all the "textbook answers" to my "problems". (but then again sometimes I have been given advice that helped)

I think I just need to know one thing. Just one thing. I'm too afraid to ask for it because sometimes when you ask for something and you're told the answer, you can't tell whether it is said with sincerity or said for the sake of saying and for the sake of assurance. And sometimes you don't want to ask certain questions because you're not prepared for the worst case scenario.

What shall I do with the time I have tonight? I want to get out of here, but honestly, there isn't anywhere that is barely convenient to go to. I want to be at peace, but shopping centres and the streets are not peaceful places. I could take some loud thumping music, but no one (among my friends) frequents such places so often now.

I think I will sleep.