Why is my temper getting really bad lately? Little things piss me off. Things I would never get pissed off in the past are making me tick now...one smooth day at work can be destroyed by just a small matter or a small inconveniences that delay my work. Or am I getting to be too much of a perfectionist that I cannot "move my cheese" when I cannot complete what I want to complete in a day?

Alvin came up to me after maths lesson and asked me "Ms N, what's wrong with you?" I asked him what he meant and he said, "You don't look happy. Are you angry? Why are you angry?" and I told him it was becuase the class was too noisy and naughty. When I left the classroom, it dawned on me (yet again) that they can see and feel how I feel. This boy is a very nice boy. He innocently came to ask me what the problem was, risking me yelling at him to go back to his seat. His innocence made me realise something...

Jenny, I remember you once said that I have no temper at all. I used to think that it was a virtue to be a "peaceful" person. Actually, I still think its a virtue. But maybe having gone through quite a bit since our secondary school days, I think that keeping quiet can lead to worse consequences. But hey back to having that good temper...I think I must find myself again. Shouldn't get too caught up with work and all that stuff and make myself upset. All this is a form of stress too.

I'm having gastric now. I don't know why.