Sometimes I really feel that the Band will be lost without me. I'm not trying to put myself on the pedestal or what. Ok, maybe I should re-phrase that statement...the Band would lose its direction without someone pushing them from behind. I'm that someone now. I have to make far-sighted plans for them and carry out the current actitivities with those goals in mind. I have to assign and delegate duties and stipulate out everything that I want the leaders to do so that the activities will run smoothly. Though I have been given a third teacher-in-charge to help out, she cannot do any of these for me because she doesn't know much about the band. It took me some time and plenty of commitment and effort to know what I know today about the band. The other 2 teachers can only help by being around during the days where they have band duty. The person to do the planning is ultimately me. Worse now, I have to consult both of them and check against their schedules before making any decisions for the band. Work gets tedious when you have to go through so many levels of clearance before getting anything done. But I guess, from the "helicopter" view, these are necessary.

I wanted to leave early (at 3pm) today. I ended up leaving at about 4:45pm. Spent all my time with the band members, briefing the leaders on what to do on Saturday and also taking care of the Cadets. I told everyone I will not be coming to school on Saturday. Like what Dear said, I have to give them (students and new teacher-in-charge) time to learn and to make mistakes. I cannot be there always to oversee everything. I have to see when is the time where I can afford to leave them on their own to find their own way around so that they will learn and they will not be too dependent on me. So this Saturday will be the day. I must learn to let go! Always think, if I were to quit teaching, the band will still go on, they will still survive. So stop stressing myself up on these trivialities (again).